I am an applied mathematics PhD candidate in the USA nearing the completion of my degree. I have been in therapy for dissociative identity disorder (DID) since January 2022. My presentation of DID is polyfragmented, with low identity alteration, high amounts of switching, day-to-day amnesia, blunted emotions, over intellectualization, subdued behavior, and a predominantly naive, optimistic, and loving worldview. I consider myself to be a singular person with a very compartmentalized internal experience, and I use the word “compartments”, or “parts” for short, to refer to my dissociated self-states. Since DID is a highly stigmatized and misunderstood disorder, I wish to remain anonymous.
Disclaimer#
On this site, I share my experiences as an autistic person living with polyfragmented dissociative identity disorder. These are my personal experiences, so they should not necessarily be generalized to other people living with these or similar disorders. Dissociation is complex and uniquely experienced by each individual, so others' narratives and conceptualizations may differ from my own. On this site, my intention is to provide a nuanced and balanced perspective of living with DID that tends to deviate from more popular narratives of the disorder. I believe that sharing and embracing diverse experiences and narratives within the DID community is vital as it alleviates the widely-held expectation that one must conform to a singular conceptualization of DID merely due to its popularity. I am not a medical or mental health professional—just someone with lived experience who is trying to understand how I operate in order to heal.
Technical details#
This website is made with Hugo using a modified version of the Paige template. The header is made with Processing.js.
Contact#
If you have any comments, questions, suggestions, or relate to my experiences, please feel free to contact me at [email protected].
